It can be hard to work on pictures in your head and memories on your own.
If you need more help, think about some of the resources here, or talk to your GP (i.e., family doctor) about getting a referral to see a mental health professional to help you to work through this with more support.
This website also has more information on getting help for traumatic loss: Home - Phoenix Australia
Remember you can always seek help any time of day or night through these places.
It can be hard to do on your own. Consider if getting some help might be useful.
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